just once, i'd like to not be put in the middle of something. i'd like for someone to open their eyes a little bit more, and realize they are NOT the only one in a situation, and that things are not hard on just them. i'm sick of sitting around watching this happen, and being the one who suffers. I am making changes now. i am going to Boston October 30th, until November 2ndish, and if I get into any of the 3 schools I am applying to i will be out there in january for good. california/sound and fury was a good idea, and ended up being an amazing trip.